I really don’t know what I’m doing

I joined the strange and confusing world of parenthood late last year.

bea with beeMany a clich̩ can be said about the moment your first child is born Рbut these two rang true for me: A) you suddenly know your life will never be the same and B) you are filled with joy and wonder because you have somehow MADE A PERSON.

For me, it was an emotional roller coaster with incredible highs and some surprisingly dark and lonely lows.

Most people will understand the highs, so it’s those lonely moments that I want to write about.

I’ll be honest. I’ve never been much of a baby person. I used to enjoy seeing babies and seeing photos of other people’s babies but felt nervous if someone placed one in my arms. Continue reading